time is a longwave

mattheah baim, death of the sun

lauren dukoff

this morning i broke up with my phone.

i know that my anxiety is also fed by the time spent on my phone.

endless scroll, from twitter to instagram, back and forth -- my favorite apps.

i've already tried some phone-free days; mostly on weekends.

but this morning, i turned off my phone and stowed it.

(but i'll still check it once a day to catch up with important messages and calls !).

i've come to realize that i was spending most of my free time checking things i don't care. and that's not how time must pass.

lately, before going to sleep, when  i was trying to remember some relevant things that happened during the day, 

i realized that i haven't done anything meaningful or rewarding.

it made me so sad.

so this morning, i took this decision and broke my morning routine.

i checked my phone a last time

then i picked up a magazine and read it while having my coffee

then i picked up my guitar and played for 30 minutes.

it's probably how most of the people enjoy their morning - doing real things - 

but that's not how i used to spend my free time... :/

how sad.

well, we'll see how long i keep this new habit :)

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listen :: bonny doon, longwave